As a human being, we consider some things as right while other things as wrong. But what does being right truly mean? How do we know if we are right or wrong?
Hesitation is partly affected by the social construct and the environment around us. Imagine a position where you’re in Mars alone, the form of hesitation will be completely different from the form of hesitation when you’re living in big cities, different from those living in rural areas.
There are two kinds of hesitations; the intent hesitation and the taste hesitation.
There are two intentions affecting a human’s decision. One is from the body, prioritizing one’s survival. The other is from the spirit, prioritizing one’s selfless love.
Our feelings and thoughts are the byproduct of these roots, yet we are complex enough to shuffle in both survival and spiritual intent into our decisions. This creates hesitations.
When we are thinking of just survival or just selfless love, the actions we take are really straightforward and honest. There’s never too much hesitation in “I really need to go to the toilet” or “My best friend is hospitalized, I have to visit him”.
But there are occasions where we are trapped in between trying to survive and trying to sacrifice for others. Such as “I don’t need a full time job, but I need to prepare myself to support a family.”
“I really need this monthly bonus to repair my microwave, but this mother and her child haven’t eaten for 3 days.”
This creates hesitation, because one intention is just thinking of one’s own needs, the other intention is thinking of other people’s.
The second is the taste hesitation. It’s the hesitation that comes from our own preferences and tastes, that may or may not link to our survival and spiritual hesitations.
“Is black shirt better than grey shirt?”
“How much sugar should I pour into the tea?”
“Should I eat banana or avocado?”
Everyone can answer differently because everyone has their own preference and taste. There hardly is any right or wrong in this case, unless you have health conditions that will then link to your survival intent.
However you choose between things, hesitations are gonna be a part of choosing. When you’ve chosen things, hesitations are still gonna be a part of sticking with your choices or choosing another.
If there are things that you wish to prioritize, write them down. It helps to reduce your hesitation.
And whenever we can choose between survival and spiritual, by theory it would be the best to always choose the spiritual. But at that very moment of choosing, we may think differently because we’re just human beings.
Despite all that, whatever you choose to do, do it thoroughly.
“Wherever you go, go with all your heart.”